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Dreading for the future.

I am curious as to how people find their better half; how they can tell if it really is forever. Does it really require being hurt? Does it mean putting up with them even if they would not even listen to you? Does it mean accepting everything even if it is against your will? Does it really have to be unfair? I know that love ain’t perfect, but I do not know how they were able to endure it. I do not know how much they extended their patience. I do not know how they were able to forget about self-respect, and be as low as possible, just to save a dwindling love. I do not know if it is still love which keeps them together, or maybe they just do not have any other choice. —A 
shared on September 19 with 84 notes via escafeism
That moment when you suddenly do not know what you want and how you really feel. That realization when you knew that things cannot be undone anymore. That if you really want to make a change, you have to make a huge sacrifice that might either make or break everything. Then you will come up with the decision to just let it be — only to be confused all over again. —A 
shared on September 19 with 114 notes via escafeism

I hate it when they make fun of my baby. He is not a “thing”. My baby is a blessing. He is our own flesh and blood. He has a life of his own. He is helpless at the moment to even decide and understand what he should feel about what other people call him. I know that maybe it was meant to be a joke, but not all matters are to be made fun of. I ignore insignificant comments especially if i am greatly unhappy about it.

shared on September 13 with 9 notes

Black Ribbon

I am currently staying with my mom. My cousin, who was also pregnant, gave birth to her baby this noon. Unfortunately, her baby died. The umbilical cord must have suffocated him or he already died even before coming out because my cousin said this morning that she could not feel her baby anymore. She is still admitted at the hospital at the moment while we are waiting for the baby. Her only wish now is that she may be able to see her baby before he’s buried. :(

He was a first-born child.

shared on September 9 with 13 notes

Mark and I broke down last night when we talked over the phone. We were so dead worried about our baby. I told him that i could not bear seeing our baby inside an incubator. It is not how i wanted it to be. I want him to be alongside his buds, waiting to be taken home. I do not want to see him struggling. I also told Mark that i can endure this pain for our baby, as long as it would mean that he will be okay. I do not mind being bed-ridden and having almost no sleep from all these aches, just as long as he would not come out earlier than expected. It is now proven that parents would sacrifice their everything for their children. This is how it feels like. I would sacrifice everything i have just to bring him in this world, without him having the need to struggle. My baby does not deserve that. It should be all on me. I cannot fight back the tears from falling. I really feel broken.

shared on September 6 with 7 notes

Pregnancy Update

Guys, please pray for my baby and I. Sa October pa due ko pero sobrang mababa na si baby. 3cm na. Di pa ako ready manganak kasi hilaw pa daw ang placenta tsaka matigas pa daw ang kwelyo. I don’t know what that kwelyo is pero please do pray for us. Three days na ako hindi makagalaw nang ayos dahil sa hypogastric pain. Kung after two weeks at wala pinagbago ang nararamdaman ko, i will be admitted sa hospital. Natatakot ako. Ayoko maging premature ang baby namin. Hay. May the Lord help us. :(

shared on September 5 with 17 notes
Ang hirap maghintay sa paliwanag na hindi dumadating. Habang tumatagal, lalong bumibigat. —A
Hey.

Hey.

shared on August 21 with 20 notes
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